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Nate Howe says:
11/24/2009 9:47 AM
  Well, I understand what you mean. My thanksgiving is going to be spent skating alone somewhere in Southern Maine. Oh well. I really hope everything works out for you, you sound like you need and deserve it...
Nate Howe says:
11/23/2009 9:32 AM
  Ya never went to NJ, i had some stuff to take care of... Then my gf stopped by and broke up with me saturday night... Fucking depressing... HAPPY BIRTHDAY! And don't worry, you'll find that person to make you happy. Have a good day!
Nate Howe says:
11/20/2009 9:34 AM
  Haha. THEN EAT! But ya I'm in my study hall in school.... I just want it to finish... Ugh. Hope your plans work out!
Nate Howe says:
11/19/2009 9:35 AM
  ya i guess i dont need a cast... just a brace when im using my foot/ankle. im heading outta state this weekend. going down to NJ to a friends... Hope you have fun,
Nate Howe says:
11/18/2009 9:20 AM
  wow... that's weird... i used to do that too... I stopped because people wanted to read them. I lost most of the notebooks i had full of them when i moved... Now i want to find them. But ya, im fine, ill be ok. it sucks walking in a cast. Brings back memories... Thanks Britt.
Patrick Waddell says:
11/17/2009 8:54 PM
  hi
Nate Howe says:
11/17/2009 10:15 AM
  ...and i just got into trouble for tweaking out on my teacher...
Nate Howe says:
11/17/2009 9:58 AM
  ... my parents are divorcing, my foots fucked up... ugh...
Nate Howe says:
11/16/2009 10:12 AM
  That's good. I'm glad your doing ok.
My week has started so FUCKING bad, it's not even funny... Whatever...
Hope everything is ok for you.

-Nathaniel
Tim Johnson says:
11/15/2009 7:31 PM
  ive been good lol. you? and how are you back on the comp lol
Nate Howe says:
11/13/2009 11:09 AM
  nothings wrong just been having one of those weeks... But im sorry about you being grounded and Im sorry about your relationship problems. I hope all is resolved. And good luck with your studies for your license!!!
XD
Nate Howe says:
11/12/2009 10:14 AM
  Well, that's good. Way to look after yourself... But ya life is just moving right along... Not too well I might add... Aw well...
Nate Howe says:
11/10/2009 10:16 AM
  ah i see. im ambidextrous myself... anywho... Im not feeling any better, just im not too worried about my hand. So ya, how's things?
Tim Johnson says:
11/10/2009 10:06 AM
  yea thats fine with me
Derrek Wilson says:
11/9/2009 1:50 PM
  Lots if clothes and when i can stand cold weather cuz in the end it's worth it. And i like fishing. Lol

You wonder why I don't talk to you anymore and please believe me when I say it's not that I don't want to, it's just that everything I want to say I can't tell you anymore.

my life.

Snuff by Slipknot

Bury all your secrets in my skin.
Come away with innocence, and leave me with my sins.
The air around me still feels like a cage
And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again...

So if you love me, let me go.
And run away before I know.
My heart is just too dark to care.
I can't destroy what isn't there.

Deliver me into my Fate
If I'm alone I cannot hate
I don't deserve to have you...
Ooh, my smile was taken long ago,
If I can change I hope I never know.

I still press your letters to my lips
And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss.
I couldn't face a life without your light,
But all of that was ripped apart, when you refused to fight
.

So save your breath, I will not care.
I think I made it very clear.
You couldn't hate enough to love.
Is that supposed to be enough?

I only wish you weren't my friend.
Then I could hurt you in the end.
I never claimed to be a Saint...
Ooh, my own was banished long ago,
It took the Death of Hope to let you go

So break yourself against my stones
And spit your pity in my soul.
You never needed any help...
You sold me out to save yourself...

And I won't listen to your shame.
You ran away, you're all the same.
Angels lie to keep control...
Ooh, my love was punished long ago,
if you still care, don't ever let me know...
If you still care, don't ever let me know...


im just a fucked up girl living in a fucked up life in a fucked up world where being me is never enough

never enough by five finger death punch

I'm so fed up with everyone around me
(No one seems to care)
I'm just so far gone and nothing's gonna change
(I'll never be the same)

It's always do this, do that,
Everything they want to
I don't want to live that way
Every chance they get their always
Pushin me away

[Chorus:]
It's never enough
No it's never enough
No matter what I say

It's never enough
No it's never enough
I'll never be what you want me to be

It's all so messed up and no one ever listens
(Everyone's deranged)
I'm just so fucked up and I'm never gonna change

(Wanna lay it all to waste)

Their always say this, say that,
Nothing that you want to
I don't want to live that way
Every chance they get their always
Shovin me aside

[Chorus]

I'm Done

[Bridge:]
In the end we're all just chalk lines on the concrete
Drawn only to be washed away
For the time that I've been given
I am what I am

I'd rather hate you
For everything you are
Than ever love you
For something you are not

I'd rather you hate me
For everything I am
Than have you love me
For something that I aint

It's never enough
It's never enough
No matter what I say

It's never enough
No it's never enough
No matter who I try to be

It's never enough
No it's never enough
No matter how I try to taste

It's never enough
Never never enough
I'll never be what you want me to be.


I'd like to think I'll be happy again, but I really need to just stop and cry now, and sometimes I wish I could just scream at you, and show you what you do to me.

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